Bella

This week has been a roller coaster ride. One moment feeling confident of everything going on in my little corner of the world & the next moment feeling bruised & exhausted - feeling like a failure and not sure how & when the bright light would appear.

It's amazing how, especially in times of trial - God placing things in my lap to help me analyze my pespective & to be able to digest the lumps of coal that are hard to swallow.

Today has been a rough day. It's been a day full of failures. A day full of messes. A day full of doubt. A day of attack. A day of unsurity. A day of questioning everything that I have been working on, trying to build, trying to brand. It's just been a yucky day.

This afternoon, feeling defeated, deflated, & uninspired - I sat down & watched an amazing movie, Bella. The story was moving, artistic - it ministered to me.
It allowed me to sit outside of my self & examine the ways that I am so very blessed. That although right now I'm not sure of the things that are happening & why all this doubt has all of a sudden surrounded me, I am blessed. I serve a God who loves me -He provides everything that I need. I serve a God who can overcome any & all obstacles that this world tries to place in my path. I need to just focus on HIM & not try to move off the path that is laid out in front of me, even when those paths seem to be easier or better. To quote from the CC Conference this week -when does easy or cheap ever hold anything of value?

Zechariah 8:12-13
For the seed shall be prosperous,
The vine shall give its fruit,
The ground shall give her increase,
And the heavens shall give their dew—
I will cause the remnant of this people
To possess all these.
And it shall come to pass
That just as you were a curse among the nations,
O house of Judah and house of Israel,
So I will save you, and you shall be a blessing.
Do not fear,
Let your hands be strong.